How One Man Stayed Sober While Alone and in Pain: What His Story Teaches Us About Porn Addiction Recovery
- Jake Kastleman
- Apr 15
- 22 min read
Updated: 5 days ago

The Perfect Storm for Porn Relapse—and Why It Didn’t Win
What happens when you're in pain, completely alone, and the people you love most are far away? For many men in porn addiction recovery, this is code red. But for one man I recently worked with—we'll call him Steve —this same scenario became a defining moment of strength.
Steve's wife and children were out of the country. He had just undergone surgery and couldn’t walk, exercise, or even move around comfortably. He was stuck at home, in pain, with far too much time alone and nothing to distract him. It was the kind of moment that would cause most men to spiral back into their addiction.
But Steve didn’t relapse.
In fact, he told me, “I haven’t felt this connected in such a long time.”
He didn’t just stay sober—he grew. What he did, and how he did it, holds a key to staying sober through your own vulnerable moments. In this article, I’ll show you exactly how he avoided relapse, and how you can do the same.
Why Solitude and Pain Usually Lead to Relapse
When we’re in physical or emotional pain, our brain is wired to seek relief. Add loneliness to the mix, and you have a perfect storm. There’s no accountability. No distractions. No feedback from the people who love you. Just you and your cravings.
For most men who struggle with porn addiction, this is one of the most dangerous setups:
You’re hurting physically or emotionally.
You’re isolated.
You’ve got a history of self-soothing through porn.
It doesn’t take much to fall. In fact, staying sober during recovery in these conditions might seem impossible—unless you approach it the way Steve did.
Steve's Story – From Isolation to Inner Strength
Steve found himself in the exact situation that had triggered relapses in the past. But this time, something changed.
His wife and children were gone. He was recovering from surgery and completely immobilized. But rather than escape into addictive behavior, Steve engaged in the practices that brought him connection, meaning, and peace.
He didn’t ignore the pain. He didn’t pretend the cravings weren’t there. He just didn’t feed them. Instead, he fed his spirit.
He told me:
“I prayed hard before the surgery. Then during recovery, I started praying multiple times per day. I read my scriptures. I set my daily mindset intentions. I worked on the program exercises. I felt closer to God and my family than I have in a long time.”
He said something else that struck me:
“The curiosity about porn just wasn’t there. The cravings had no space to live in my mind.”
Why? Because he had filled that space with something stronger.
3 Practices That Made the Difference
Let’s unpack what Steve actually did so you can apply it to your own life.
1. Prayer as Mental Anchoring
Steve didn’t just say a quick morning prayer and move on. He anchored his mind in spiritual connection multiple times per day.
He talked to God about his pain. He thanked Him for small victories. He asked questions. He listened. He received impressions and acted on them.
This is what it looks like to replace porn addiction with purpose and presence.
If you're asking how to overcome porn addiction alone, the answer is: don’t stay alone spiritually. God becomes your strength when you choose to invite Him in consistently—especially when it hurts.
2. Mindset Statements That Fill the Craving Void
In the program, Steve learned how to write a "Relationship Mindset Statement." Every day, Steve reviewed this intention—a mindset statement focused on his relationship with God, his wife, his kids, and his personal growth. He updated and modified the phrases daily to keep them fresh, relevant, and specific to his heart.
These statements aren’t just positive affirmations. They are mental scripts designed to fill the space that cravings try to hijack. When you wake up and immediately tell your brain who you are and what you stand for, you're far less likely to be influenced by cravings later in the day.
Daily mindset practice = mental strength training.
3. Curriculum and Ownership
Steve didn’t treat recovery like a passive process. He dug into the modules of the recovery program with intention.
He journaled. He reflected. He used his downtime as a sacred opportunity for internal transformation.
Too many men think they need the right conditions to get better. Steve shows us the opposite: recovery happens because you take action, not because your life feels easy.
Psychological and Spiritual Principles at Work
Internal Family Systems (IFS) Insight
What happened inside Steve's mind is what we hope for in every recovery journey:
His protective parts didn’t feel the need to act out, because his internal system was being cared for.
The curious, craving part of him didn’t get suppressed—it got ignored naturally because it wasn’t needed.
When your Self is leading with intention, prayer, and peace, your protectors don’t have to scramble to solve problems. This is what it means to lead your internal system.
Spiritual Framing
Steve met God in the pain. He didn’t ask to be saved from the experience. He asked to be strengthened through it.
When you fill solitude with sacred intention, it becomes a place of power.
How to Build Your Own Solitude Survival Strategy
If you want to know how to resist porn urges when you’re alone, here’s a simple blueprint based on what Steve did:
Morning:
Begin with heartfelt prayer
Read a passage of scripture
Write a mindset statement that centers on purpose and service
Midday:
Engage with your recovery curriculum
If possible, do light movement or stretching
Reach out to someone—a friend, coach, or loved one—even just a simple check-in text
Evening:
Reflect on the day: Where did I feel God? Where did I lead myself well?
Voice memo journal to process emotions
Close the day in prayer
This isn’t about perfection. It’s about structure that invites spiritual power into your most vulnerable hours.

For the Spouse Reading This
If you're the wife of a man struggling with porn addiction, here’s what this story can show you:
Your husband is capable of more than you know, especially when he leans into spiritual and emotional grounding.
You don’t need to be his rehab center. But your encouragement and belief in his growth mean the world.
Healing is possible—not just for him, but for both of you. It begins when he takes ownership, and you give space for that ownership to grow.
Want to Go Deeper?
Want to learn how to create your own daily mindset practice? Need a guide to build spiritual resilience in your recovery? Join my free porn addiction workshop or apply for 1-on-1 porn recovery coaching today.
You don’t have to keep falling every time life gets hard. You can build spiritual strength and mental clarity that keeps you grounded when everything else feels shaky.
Final Word
Solitude doesn’t have to be your downfall. It can be your defining moment.
When pain comes, let it wake you up. When loneliness hits, let it drive you to connection with God. When triggers arise, let them be your training ground.
Like Steve, you can come out stronger than ever before—if you’re willing to act with intention and build the mindset and lifestyle of recovery.
Your strength is already inside you. It’s time to turn it on.
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